Are people like this, are people like this, are people
something isn’t . . .
quite right, quite right, quite right
it doesn’t quite fit right (!)
generational mistakes
like the one his parents made
when they had sex that one night and
a month later when she didn’t bleed and
his mother looked at his father and
I guess I have to do this now?
her eyes asking questions
her hands rubbing her floral apron, her fingers coated in
flour, her head tipped back, the scream.
Are people like this, are people like him, when they
slip out in one push, so ready to make the world their own
so they fuck it up, they fuck it up,
they fuck everything,
because they think they were born
with the right to take whatever they want
as long as there’s a chance, just a
please! save me! my mother never!
my mother never . . .
he heard it one day
she said “I never wanted him anyways”
poor boy. poor boy. poor boy. gold hair. sad lips.
girls used to say to him, behind his back, around the corner, in notes folded up
like footballs, left in lockers
I think I can fix him.
I think I can fix him.
the words were said so many times that they made a coat
and he put the coat on
and he liked to laugh when he wore the coat
that the girls had made him.
Now that one thing his mother said walks
with it’s own feet, it’s own hands, it’s own dick
and he uses it like his own!
that thing his mother said, he is that, the thing
his mother said . . .
and he pours his milk into a cup
and he eats his cereal with his hands
because something about him will never be
quite right (!)
people are like this
people are like this
when they know their parents didn’t want them
when they see the sadness in their mothers eyes
when they separate their spirit from their body
and use their skin like an excuse to say they’re really alive.